i've finally updated a little bit. I still have more to add, but it's mind-numbing to add everything at once..especially on this slow connection.

anyways, i have some new things in the works. I think by far it's the most involved pieces i've done. I've come out of the haze, my mind is clear...creativity flows in times like these.

enjoy

i suppose we all have times where we need a change in life, a change in scenery, a change hopefully for the better. I'm not sure if i'm crazier now than i have been, or what's become of the mess that i created for myself, but i feel like the fog has been clearing. that haze that has surrounded me for so long has been lifting over the past 3-4 months now and i can see things as they are. maybe it's because i've mostly quit drinking? I know that makes people see me in a different light. I haven't been the socialite that i sort of was in the past recently. I think it's for the best though. i have goals that i need to accomplish. i need to get there to reach the next plateau. I've realized that i shouldn't wait around for others anymore, that i need to really do what i want to do. I think that makes me sound cold when i'm not...I'm tired of being on hold for fear of hurting others and putting aside what i want to do today until years from now. I find i've been more creative lately, while maybe having a glass or two of wine, than i ever was while i was waging war on my liver....

what a miserable day. not much sleep for days now. woke up to bad news and then more bad news. i suppose the only good news i've had today is that my landlord liked the cookies i made.
i feel bad that i come off as quiet sometimes, especially lately, but i can't help it. i'm stuck inside my head sometimes. I'm looking at this page, at some of the commercial things that i've done, and feel sorta like a sellout lol. Granted, i dont' care that much about it, i paint real paintings for me and for others, but then there's business. I'm happy with that. Lets me be a little creative and get paid. although, i'm happier when people want a painting because of it's content and because i painted it how i see things.

anyways, cheers friends.
and early happy present day!